FeLiNa

Two weeks in and I finally went out on my own tonight. It had to happen. It had to be. Felina Bar - if that's not a sign, then I don't know what is.

Blacker than night were the eyes of Felina,
Wicked and evil while casting a spell.
My love was deep for this Mexican maiden;
I was in love but in vain, I could tell.

It's a cool little bar that, were it in L.A. somewhere, might seem a bit pretentious. Yet, here, it works. Bartenders that take pride in their mixological prowess. Amazing cocktails  AMAZING! Two words - Mojito Mezcal. There's an apartment for rent directly across the street. That could either be amazing, or incredibly bad, as I can see myself being a regular there.

Science and shit.

Hendricks and grapefruit and shit, oh my!

Earl Grey-infused Gin. 

On another note, I'm so glad El Paso didn't become an instant hipster anthem, given the prominent role it played in the final episode of Breaking Bad. It may seem lame (and maybe pretentious), but I knew that song before any of these chumps. It's kind of "our song". Good old Panda. I remember the first time he played it for me as we were going 70 mph down Shoup after Indian buffet. I fell in love with the song instantly... or maybe it was just the joy I got from listening to Panda singing along to it. I miss that guy. 

Back to Felina Bar, good music, good ambiance, and seemingly good crowd. The waitress / bar back... I swear I've seen her before, though. Maybe she just has one of those faces. I didn't stay long, because as much as I enjoyed being there, it's incredibly depressing drinking alone at the bar, whilst everyone else is there with friends, enjoying each other's company. 

I honestly don't believe I'll make friends out here. It's lonely. I'm alone out here. Truly alone. A co-worker had invited me to a going away party for one of our co-workers who is heading back to Zurich this weekend, but I think it was more of an obligatory invite, especially since I never got a follow up - no time, directions, etc. It's fine, though. I don't think I would have gone, anyway.

I'm old. I'm the oldest one of our team down here, except for our boss. I'm aging. I am aged. Help the aged. 

Funny how it all falls away.